My Day

1. Get to school at 6:15 to distribute newspapers
2. Play CSI and solve a burglary investigation
3. Water some plants
4. Act out a satirical Shakesphearian play
5. Go talk to a counselor about my fucked up mother
6. Deal with idiotic customers at work
7. Almost get mowed down by a truck (near death experience—no big deal)
8. Laugh on the phone with a guy I like

pretty interesting day if you ask me

What is Unconditional Love?

Of course I love my mom. But I love her BECAUSE she’s my mom, not because of who she is. I HATE who she is. This is not just typical teenage girl and her mom don’t get along. No. I am old enough to know what kind of person she is and I hate that person. So is it unconditional love for me to hate who she is and still love her simply because society says I morally have to?

I don’t know if I should keep trying to have a relationship with her even though she has done so many UNFORGIVABLE deeds. Like everytime I even think about her I just want to throw up because it literally makes me sick thinking of all the disgusting things she’s done. Like today this girl showed me a picture of women with bad boob jobs and she was like ‘Oh my God, what would you do if that was your mom?’ And I wanted to say well it might as well be and I don’t fucking know what to do.

Should I cut her out of my life? Like I know that sounds awful but I am literally TERRIFIED of becoming like her. She swore she would never be like her mom and she is 10x worse than her mom ever was. I want to be able to have a drink without the fear that I’m going to be an alcoholic like her or hook up with a guy without the fear that I’ll be a sex addict like her.

And the fact that she has been an evil bitch to my dad for so many years to the point where she has threatened to take his kids away from him. Like how can you forgive that?

I don’t know what to do. I think it wouldn’t be too hard to cut her out since we don’t talk that much anyway but knowing that I can’t pick up the phone and tell her about my emerging romance or share my excitement about a career path or whatever just devastates me. Like that’s what moms are supposed to be there for. Sure I have substitutes for her, and they’re great, but they’re not my mom.

Help.

So…what exactly are the boundaries when it comes to age difference?

I just like him okay.

He said I’m his “kind of girl” lol whatever that means. I’ve finally met someone that ENJOYS my sarcasm and competitiveness.

I could tell by the way he was looking at me that he was being a little bit blown away. I’m not just saying that, like he is a guy that’s been through the ropes and he is still somehow interested in me.

He tried to stay away from me for half the night lol saying I was “dangerous,” and he would only be there as my “protector” in college. Well I guess he changed his mind.

So I of course assume that we are just going to make out for awhile and that will be the end of that. But no, he pulls away to talk to me about that exact thought. He said he wanted to date me. Um, I’m sorry, WHAT. Did I mention he’s 26? Well, he is.

So he proceeds to kiss me and wants to “sleep” with me. “Let’s fall asleep together,” he says to me. I said, why? I said you know nothing is going to happen right? Like we’re not going to have sex, I just met you and I’m a virgin and you’re fucking 26.

He said, I know, I just want to kiss you and sleep with you. That’s all. And that’s what we did.

And now he’s texting me trying to get me to go out to dinner with him. He’s so freakin sweet and cute and sexy and I just can’t help myself.

We like each other, we have fun together, and that’s all that matters right now.

Call me crazy.

So I’m talking to a cute, nice, sweet, FREAKING HOT guy

Thank you for making me take risks Valentine’s Day.

Let’s see how long this will last lol

I freaking like too many people…

What to do when Single on Valentine’s Day:

• Dress up really hot to let everyone know what they’re missing
• Be happy you’re single
• Make fun of “lovey-dovey” couples
• Don’t be bitter about it though, not worth it
• Eat chocolate
• Text exes that you still kinda like and tell them Happy Valentine’s Day ;)
• Feel really awkward when they text back and tell you not to text them hitting on them because they are sort of “talking” to someone
• Have no regrets <3
• Accept a friend request from a guy you used to like
• Feel awkward when you message him saying you haven’t talked to them in awhile ;) and they don’t say anything back…
• Eat chocolate
• Look forward to spending a Valentine’s Day with someone you love
• Promise to never be one of those annoying couples
• Watch your favorite TV show
• Miss “the one that got away” for a minute
• Look forward to college life
• Have a late night chat with whoever texts back
• Have no regrets <3
• Love Valentine’s Day :)